The mind is like a parachute - it doesn’t work unless it’s open. - Frank Zappa
Stay open - look up - and hold on!
When I Work Out
I put everything else inside my head - any thought or distraction - completely distant to what I’m really focusing on. I think of the person I was in my highschool days, when I was working out twice a day, eating at least 4,000 calories and in the best shape I’ve ever been. I see that determined girl and I push myself to the ultimate limit. I focus harder. I ignore all possibilities of quitting. I tell myself that I can’t live knowing that I broke the goal I made for myself - the only way out is finishing what I started. So I go - I go harder than I ever thought I had the power to. I’m sweating, red, and ready to collapse - but I keep going. Until I count down the last 10 seconds 10…9…8…7…6…5……..4……….3……….2………1. BREATHE. It’s over. I can really live now.
Happiness is not possession
You said you really love her but she broke up with you. You are angry and want revenge but that only means you really needed her but never really loved her. If you really love her you would be sad but grateful for the time you spent with her. You would let her go knowing that she will be happier elsewhere. True love is never a possession it’s a liberation.
Sometimes I think like a guy - Sometimes I want things I can’t have.
wings on back. Some say it’s over-played. I say, it only needs a good tattoo artist to make it original.
Love is in the air
The flowers are bloomed, the pollen is settling, the bird population has definitely increased, and flip flops are becoming part of the every day ward robe. Love is easier, in my life at least. Cam and I are approaching our one year mark - looking back, what a year it has been with him. I’ve learned so much being with him. The core fundamentals about being in a relationship I’ve always been aware of but keeping your partner on your mind at all times is quite a skill. I’ve definitely become better at it as well as planning and organizing my life more. I can no longer “go where the wind blows me” ALL THE TIME like I used to. As much as I desperately miss that aspect of independence, I know the love I share with this man is well worth a few minor sacrifices. I’m scare shitless to realize how far we’ve gone and what is to come between us. He has produced an closely-knitted, undying love for me and that feeling is practically unexplainable. One day, we hope to get married, then have kids and before you know it I’m making lunches at 7 am with an apron for a little army every day. As incredibly scary as that sounds, I find an inner calming peace knowing that it could be with him. I know he puts more than 100% in everything he does, I know he will be a good father, and I know undoubtedly that he is a good person. So here is to us and the success that will surround us.
Oh, I am definitely in love at 26. I can’t believe I actually said that so soon.
